Friday, December 30, 2016

Brain Cloud

On December 7th of this year, I was diagnosed with a brain tumor in my left parietal lobe.

I think I will use this blog to document what's been going on. It has been very helpful talking about this to my Facebook friends, neighbors, and family. The shock of it all was just too great to keep inside. I just had to share. I don't mean to spread the dread around, but you guys can handle it! And I have no shame in admitting that I can be needy.

I mean, we ALL need each other! We are all ONE family. 

Knowing I am in others' thoughts and prayers has been SO HELPFUL. I have been overwhelmed by everyone's support. And by everyone, I am talking about all walks of life: old friends, new friends, writer friends, neighbors, acquaintances, christians, muslims, jews, atheists…HUMANS! And my dog, COSMO, who I believe the universe sent just in time.


P.S. Always have a book. A Wrinkle in Time was most serendipitous 🌠


Here are a few posts from my Facebook page that I'll just copy/paste. 

I had a very scary seizure yesterday, completely out the blue. Luckily Jon works from home and was able to call 911. Now I'm in the hospital awaiting MRi results. It could a number of things, from an infection to tumor. I'm just thankful I have another day. YesterdY, I thought that was it! 

I'm thankful for great family, great friends, great views, and great books. I kinda feel like Meg when she travels by tesserat. Body is a bit numb. But I'm home now after two days and taking it easy. Thanks for all your love and support. It means a lot❤️

Brain cancer. Did not see that one coming. I am so thankful to all my amazing neighbors, family, friends, and doctors. Great team at Providence and Swedish Medical Institute. Every single person, from EMTs, nurses, assistant nurses, MRI techs, volunteers, physical therapists, etc...every single one of them exceptionally and compassionately played out their unique roles that restored my faith in humanity. We will be ok! 
Biopsy is scheduled for Jan 9th. Basically a brain screw and needle, all done with high tech imaging. They do not recommend surgery for removal, it's in the "nebula" portion of the brain that would not be worth the risk. Radiation or chemo once they know the grade. Thank you for all your support. I am a fighter and, in a way, this has actually been a gift. It's making every moment even sweeter. I think the universe just opened a portal 

SO NOT surprised by the outpouring of love & support from the kid-lit community. You (WE!) are the cream of the crop! ❤️📚📚📚 Thank you

Stephanie Payne Geckle was feeling happy.
I've been having to use a walker like an old lady. Now, yes, I'm really, REALLY good at being an old lady. I love to sit, read, drink my Lady Grey, play silly iPad games, mahjong, naps. But my inner wizard is eager for adventure. And my physical therapist just gave me the ok to graduate to a cane! It will be a Gandalf staff of course. 
"A wizard is never late, nor is he early. He arrives precisely when he means to." - Tolkien

Stephanie Payne Geckle updated her profile picture.

Friday, May 20, 2016

Summon your inner 80s child for a little motivation today!

To the people of my generation!
You who were there when MTV first aired...
this post is for you. 

Reflect on who you were at age, 8, 9, 10, 11...

Do you remember your dreams? The things you were into? What made you happy? 

Find an old picture of yourself smiling. What would that child say to you now? What would you say back? Would she (he) be amazed at who you've become? Did she cringe a little? Gag? 

Gag me with a spoon

Well, fear not.

It's time to make friends with your inner child. To be at peace. She WANTS to be part of your life! Wouldn't you like her to be? Let's face it, you really, really need her.

It's all very simple. These 3 steps can help you get started:




So quit spazzing! 


Sunday, January 17, 2016

Dear Blog,

So much is going on, which is why I haven't written in ages.
And this time I promise to hit the "publish" button instead of keeping this post hidden from the world.
AND I promise to finish this post instead of leaving it not-even-half-way done...

Hmmm, I was really tempted to break my promise. I'm such a reluctant writer.

Ok, I was just about to break that promise again! Time to push through.

I just read a motivational article by Darcy Pattison. In it, she encourages writers to START AGAIN. And AGAIN and AGAIN and AGAIN. This is great advice for me, because guess what? WRITING CAN BE HARD! At least when the inner critic is in the driver's seat. Heck, even in the passenger's seat! Time to conjure up a really cheesy action-adventure movie where there's a high speed chase. You know the one. Where the bad guy (inner critic) climbs onto the roof of his moving vehicle, jumps onto another car (my brain), and makes his way in. OK, now for the fun part. While driving and swerving to avoid big semi-trucks, I've got to somehow knock this guy out or throw him out of my car. Only thing is, he comes in handy later for revision time.

Oh dear. Now I'm mulling over my options. I know I said I wouldn't break that promise, but I find myself...freezing up.

Time to push through.

Glancing in the rearview mirror to make sure no car was right behind her, our heroine slams on the breaks. The critic, not wearing a seat belt, hits the dash and slumps over, with little blue birdies circling his head. Reaching over, our heroine opens the passenger door and sends the critic rolling down a steep embankment. 

Our heroine notices he is yelling some pretty useful stuff on his way down...

But don't worry. He'll be back. They always come back. Perhaps next time by helicopter.

But, until then...

Now our heroine can enjoy the freedom of writing. Now she can start again. She presses down on the pedal and cruises down the highway into the sunset. The end.

Whew. Well, even bad writing is writing!